Caroline (crystalcazzie) wrote,
Caroline
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Can't Just Enjoy It, Can I?

Pub quiz went well, but for some reason I am filled with anxiety today, feeling like I must have said or done something stupid last night and everyone on the team hates me and doesn't want me there any more.

I keep telling myself it's probably not true, but then I remember something silly that I did say and I wonder if they all picked up on it and I'm right in thinking that they all hate me.

I hope it's not true.

On the bright side, we did win again. That's good because it makes me feel like my presence is more of a help than a hindrance, which is another accusation my anxiety likes to whisper in my ear. At the moment I can say we have a 100% success rate with me on the team!

Getting up this morning wasn't a problem, probably because I was so worried about missing my train if I overslept. It was interesting to see how many people are already up and on public transport at 6am. I do like being up early and sometimes I wonder if I could do it regularly, but I'm not sure I'd be able to keep it up. Although having said that, it's not like I'm up late at the moment. I do start work at 8am after all.
Tags: anxiety, london, pub quiz
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